Lately I’ve been feeling REALLY busy, yet also really unproductive. The day flies by and I feel like I start it with a million things to do and end it with a million things to do. In a nutshell, work and home life is king right now and creative time is getting squashed. I get that it’s not realistic to think I can sit around all day and do what I want, such as {but not limited to}: learning to knit, making valentines, reading the dottie angel book I got for Christmas, taking pictures, gardening, learning the business of blogging, shaving my legs for once, thinking about BlogHer, editing photos, baking cookies, and working on Sky’s big boy room BUT when it's festering in my head 24/7 vs. getting worked on, I get a little crazy, a little frustrated, and a little stifled. Why is this stuff even important? I don’t know. Sometimes, it just makes me feel better, I guess. Two years into this whole “kid” thing, and I’m still learning to accept that the “me” time I had pre-baby will never, EVER come back. Not ever. Or, maybe it will...when I’m 60.
Even though I spend 40 hours a week working, another 10 commuting, and many more in between caring for Sky and not seeing my husband as much as I’d like, I also blame my lack of creative DOING on the internet. Yeah, that’s right. YOU INTERNET. I love it to bits but sometimes I feel like all my free time is spent reading other blogs and keeping up with the constant churn that is Pinterest, Facebook, and Twitter. It shouldn’t go away completely, and it won’t…but, there has to be balance. I think as bloggers, we have all gone through this, right? It’s a never ending struggle to stay in that sweet space where life feels equally distributed. Ebb and Flow, Shift and Settle. Words that stick in my brain lately. I feel like a buoy.
Kirsten’s ALT recap brought to light a good point, that I’ve heard before, but it can never be said too much. Via Jenny {at little green notebook}:
10% of your time should be spent on inspiration {blogs, pinterest, magazines} and 90% of your time should be spent on doing and acting {working on projects, getting outside and taking photos, decorating, shopping, etc.}.
It’s SO TRUE.
{photo via Ez via Stephanie Reid}
I’m not sure what the answer is to complete balance. Perhaps it’s that spurts of pure balance are few and far between and what keeps us going is the constant corrections we make to stay on the right path. Or, maybe balance is more wine and chocolate. Could be.
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