There’s something about hitting 30 weeks that all of a sudden has me realizing this pregnancy is almost over. How did that happen? To date, we haven’t settled on a name, the nursery is non-existent, and I feel the pressure of the countdown beginning. I guess that’s what happens with baby #2?
Physically, I’m feeling ok. I’ve finally gained more weight {18 pounds so far) so it’s getting hard to move, lift, bend over, put on shoes, sleep, or climb stairs, but that’s to be expected. I’m thankful my body feels more relaxed and less-tense than it did with Sky. Baby boy is starting to move, kick and roll A LOT…oh those painful jarring rolls where it feels like my ribs are going to pop right out! He’s very active.
Mentally, I don’t feel so good. Sky has been so difficult to handle lately that I find myself at my wits end everyday wondering how I’m going to handle life with two kids when I can barely handle one. I have a lot of anxiety and panic, both about the birth but also all of the transitions that will take place – for me, for sky, for Josh and I as a couple, and for our family.
On a positive note, I’m getting excited thinking about what this boy will be like. Will he be a totally different baby and person from Sky? What will he look like? Will I know what I’m doing or will it be like I’m starting over? I’ll kick myself later for saying this when I’m so sleep deprived and exhausted, but part of me is so excited to be able to nurse and rock a snuggly baby again.
I’ve finally started feeling like I want to clean, organize, and get a room in order. Here’s what it looks like now:
Scary, huh? I have some ideas on how I’d like to decorate so we’ll see how far I get between now and April. This photo is actually a big improvement over previous weeks when this room was used as a “dumping ground” for all of our extra moving boxes.
I’ve also been buying little things here and there – some onesies too cute to resist, swaddling blankets, a merino wool hat for the hospital, and some fabric to make burp cloths.
The next few weeks will bring more frequent midwife appointments, some meetings with our doula {yay!!}, and hopefully lots of organizing, crafting, and family time as we try to relish our last bit alone with Sky. This is getting exciting!
Make sure to schedule some naps in there for yourself too. Looks like fun projects ahead.
Posted by: Mama Melch | February 06, 2013 at 07:12 AM
You look awesome! I think there's something that comes with a 2nd baby that makes you more relaxed about everything - like you know, you'll settle on a name, and you know the nursery will come together. Because you know what goes into it. I'm sure you'll be in full nesting mode in no time and you'll complete a few of these things. Have you read any of Ina May's books? I read a couple of her books before I had Ali and it took any fear about birth away. I'm starting to re-read them now too. Might help relieve any anxiety around birth you're having. Keep the pics and updates coming! Can't believe your babe will be here so soon.
Posted by: Annie | February 06, 2013 at 07:24 AM
This is just how I was with Archer. We didn't have a name for him until our last day in the hospital. He didn't have a crib, let alone a put together room, until he was 4 or 5 months old. And the stress and anxiety? Well, I don't have a lot of words of wisdom (Not that you're asking) except to say that it all works itself out. There's an adjustment period for sure, but everyone settles into a new grove before too long. And I PROMISE you that as soon as Sky gives the baby a hug or a kiss, or says his name the first time? You will just die of happiness and forget any anxiety you had. : )
PS- It's probably not fair how adorable you look at 30 weeks pregnant.
Posted by: Meghan | February 06, 2013 at 08:11 AM
You look SO darling! You are all baby! Wow, time is flying! If it makes you feel any better, you are WAY ahead of me on the baby prep :) My future nursery is still currently a dumping ground, haha! Sorry to hear you are having some anxiety, but that should fade as your due date draws closer. You'll be just fine and the joy of having a baby in the home will overpower any stress you might be feeling. Personally, I was much more relaxed the second time around and really relished and enjoyed all those newborn moments...because it goes so fast. NOW...when the baby gets bigger and you have two active little boys, well, that's when the real fun begins ;)
Posted by: Megan | February 06, 2013 at 08:30 AM
As everyone has said, you look ridiculously adorable! I'm sure it's hard to hear that when you feel the exact opposite, but take it from us ladies - you look AWESOME!
With your taste and style, I'm sure you'll have that nursery put together in no time! I found your blog just after you announced your pregnancy - I can't believe how fast time is flying! :)
Posted by: Becky | February 06, 2013 at 04:16 PM
You are so beautiful. Don't worry, we still haven't totally finished Mila's nursery and she is 6 months old ;) Hope we can get together before that little man arrives!
Posted by: Chelsea | February 07, 2013 at 02:40 PM
We were the same way when I was pregnant. The nursery was a disaster, and in fact, we didn't clean it out until he was 4 months old. lol. We also didn't have a name until he was born, so don't feel too badly ;-)
BTW, you could be the cutest preggo lady ever. Just sayin'
Posted by: Mandy@ a sorta fairytale | February 08, 2013 at 08:02 PM
I can't believe you are already 30+ weeks along! Pregnancy looks great on you. FYI... I'm pretty sure being a mental mess before #2 arrives is totally normal. I had so much anxiety about handling a baby + a toddler, it was ridiculous. By the time we were all home from the hospital as a family of four, all that anxiety disappeared. Now, of course I had moments of "what have I done!" but I will say that 99% of the time it just felt right and it continues to feel right. You will be an awesome mommy of 2 and Sky is going to love being a big bro.
Posted by: Ariel | February 11, 2013 at 03:59 PM